Yet again it has been quite sometime since I blogged and
honestly I think about it but just avoid it. I’ll be very honest here, and say
most of this one will be focusing on my monkey princess’.
Jade finished skating lessons in March and loved them. She is bogeying along the ice and asking to
get out again. I am thinking we may give
ringette a shot in the fall to get the skating up and get her on a team as she looves
the friends aspect. Jade also continues
to do gymnastics and dance runs for another month. Soccer finished up and Jade chose to give
t-ball a shot and is also loooving that.
She also just finished another set of swimming lessons but this girl
likes to be the first to finish and who cares about technique, lol; she is
getting better though. Jade is a busy
girl but pretty much looks forward to going to it all; of course a lot of the
interest is seeing friends. The girl is
still full of energy, getting a little attitude and has a true love of
life. She still has moments of shyness
but those are becoming fewer and often reserved for people that she sees as not
being that nice. My word though, this
girl loves her make up and is constantly asking me for some but as you all know
I own the most minimalist amount possible to get by. The lipstick has to be before leaving and her
purse now comes everywhere…. not just as a fashion item but she actually pulled
it out at DQ the other day to pay. Pretty
exciting that she starts kindergarten next year and Jade is oober excited. My little girl is growing up and is often wanting
to be with friends over family. At
t-ball the other night, I was helping out but the only parent whose kid went in
another group, lol. It’s been reassuring
to hear the continuous mentions of her, “excuse me” and “please” and “thank
yous”. Guess this means we are doing
something right and haven’t completely failed on her. I would have to say she
is right when she said “I am my mommy’s best friend”. She can sometimes put me over the notch but
in times of need she is there in an instant full of love and a real
jokester. I can’t believe she is going
to be 5 this coming week…..ahhhhhhh. The
best ever though, you can now tell that one of my daughters is actually mine,
lol
The other one, ya, you know her by the name of Charlie, is,
as Jade says “so crazy”. This girl has
no boundaries and no fears. She is that
child that likes to put things on her face and walk around blindly…. until she
meets the couch or cupboard. She opens
every drawer and cupboard in the kitchen (figured out the child locks) and
pulls it all out. Trying to cook the
other night, she found the junk drawer and it was everywhere including erasable
marker all over her face. If you don’t
hear Charlie, she is up to something whether it be stealing everyone’s shoes,
in the garbage or sneaking something of Jades.
We seriously have to look in the garbage before we through anything out
to make sure she hasn’t put anything non garbage like my phone or Jade’s shoe
in. She is definitely trouble with a
capital T. She loves throwing all her
food on the ground but has no issue stealing someone else’s and savouring every
bite. I can’t believe how big she is
getting and will be 2 in September. She
loves to sing but what she is exactly singing is a mystery except for “Let It
GO”. Her new saying is “what you doing’? My gosh though, these 5am wake up 7 days a
week is catching upon me, lol. Isn’t the second child supposed to have less
energy than the first or is that just something I was really hoping would come
true?
We have been very fortunate to have found a warm and loving
day home for the girls when needed and if it were up to her, Jade would be
there daily. They go there with smiles and come home with smiles, what else
could a mom want? If we are out and see
Christal’s car, Jade has a little party of excitement about seeing them. So so so relieving to have this available for
us.
As you all know we went to Mexico and met my parents
there. For me, it was one of the best
vacations in a long long long time.
Everyone was busy and happy; I of course got burned to the point it
flipping hurt to walk. I put suncscreen
on so \I think my only option now is to stay in the shade…ugh. There girls spent as much time as they possibly
could in the pool and providing entertainment.
Jade is done with the life jacket and so Charlie wears it and just
floats and flips herself around. More
than one person remarked on them being some of the best entertainment during
their stage. Jade attached to my moms
side the entire time they were there with us so thy got in some good
bonding.
Ted is working in one of the armouries in South Edmonton and
trucking along, learning and advancing.
With all these forest fires already breaking out, they have all been
told they could be heading out to help at anytime so we will get mentally
prepared for that. He is dealing with
his back again but should be good to go soon with all the physio. Ted and Jade continue their obsession of Lego
and have set up tables in a little room downstairs.
As for me, well, I am just motoring along. Taking things one day at a time and hoping for
brighter times. My girls deserve so much
more and I can’t seem to be able to give him the nice mom they deserve. I know Jade tells me I am the best mom a lot
but I don’t feel she knows any better. She
has the biggest heart and is a great care taker. She makes me laugh lots, especially when her friend’s
moms keep telling me how Jade says I can fix anything because I am a
doctor. As some parts of life get better
with more support, other parts that I have really worked hard to suppress get
harder and more vicious thus making the days tougher to get through. I am
really learning how mental health can truly destroy someone’s soul and without
support kill it. I honestly don’t know
where I would be if it weren’t for these two monkeys in my life. My main priority is making sure the girls
have what they need and are able to get out with friends to do activities but I
would love them to have a mom who smiled more and wasn’t so preoccupied in her
own head and struggles. Don’t get me
wrong, they don’t have an awful life, I just am not the mom I expect of myself
nor I want to be. Any who, I am not
going to go into all this, no time.
Hope everyone is enjoying the pics of the girls as they make
me smile so hope they do for you as well.
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